What I Am Doesn't Define Who I Am
I figured out who I am, and what I want in life
Welcome to my first blog post! It's been a long time coming, but finally I'm getting some of my thoughts down onto paper - or rather webpage.
During the start of Covid like many others I was being driven mad. I was in an apartment that was very small for myself, my husband and our little one since we decided to build a house from the ground up. I came to realize how very lucky we have been to have houses instead of apartments for most of my life.
We were building a house and it kept having delays after delays because well...Covid ruined everything. Staying in the apartment for almost a year and not having my own space was driving me up a wall. I had no outlet to do anything creative which was something I had been missing - I just didn't realize how much I'd been missing it.
I also had a bit of a life crisis during all of this. Now try to stay with me because I think this part is important. Someone asked me to describe who I was and I said a project manager. At that moment it hit me that the very first thing and most important thing I said was in relation to my job. I never EVER wanted that to be the case. While I love my job and I still am a project manager to this day, I needed to do some self discovery on what makes me - me.
I started a little bit of a self discovery journey that started as a YouTube channel, but realized pretty quickly that's not something I'm interested in. When trying to put yourself out there for people to get to know me I froze up a bit and felt like I was being fake. I've always been someone of a closed off person, and it was difficult sharing my thoughts and making it interesting. I ended up stopping but I knew that I still was missing that creative outlet that I needed.
When we got into the house and I got my office set up I finally had room to do painting. I'd been looking at alcohol ink paintings on Pinterest for I believe 3 years now, and I finally had somewhere to try it out.
I think whenever I got the tools and a space set up I painted every single day. I felt like a little piece of my soul had been given back to me. Painting makes me extremely happy, and as they say it keeps my cup full. Didn't realize it's what I had been missing, but I'll never go back to not doing anything creative.
Once I was painting so much, and getting really good feedback I said the hell with it and started this beauty of a company - Seven Olives Design. My journey's been a bit fuzzy and muddled, but if you asked me now to describe who I was I'd tell you first and foremost I am happy. I'm an artist, a mom, a project manager and a chef and while those are jobs and specifically things I do, it's not who I am. These do not define me. Who I am is a happy individual and I couldn't ask for anything else.
Hope this helps anyone out there struggling with who they are, I'll probably end up writing more on this topic but it's a start. Talk to you soon.
All the best,